Friends, Neighbors, Countrymen:
Celebrate with me! Today marks the
FIFTIETH day that Zach Brown (aka Zachy Pooh) has been on his mission.
You know what this means... Only 680 days left. We are 6.85% through. 50/730 = 25/365 = 5/73. We are Five Seventy-Thirds of the way done. The glass is SOOO half-full right now.
For all you who hate love and romance and cuteness, or if you've been Dear Johned or sent a Dear John, or if you are a doubter or a "waiter hater," or if you just don't care about my love life, there is a nice red 'X' (or circle) in the upper right corner of your screen. Direct your mouse toward that button and click. See ya next time.
For the rest of you... Behold. "
A Celebration in Photos."
Cutest picture ever!!! I have had this picture on my phone since before I even liked Zach. Even before I was biased I thought it was the most adorable little kid picture in the world.
I don't know who took this picture, and I wasn't there when it was taken, but I love it of these two. Whoever you are, photographer... thanks.
With a few lads from the A Cappella Choir, in SLC.
Zach & I really started being Zach & I (Me'n'Zach) on our choir trip to Disneyland... the Happiest Place on Earth.
This is us... imitating the sign on the wall at Zupas. It's too bad it's blurry...
Senior Ball... Need I say more??
Even though he was way the heck out at Duke last Valentine's Day, he sent me roses. It was a delightful surprise. For those of you who don't know, Zach is pretty romantic.
Don't tell him I said that.
The best chums a girl could ask for.
Hahaha he's always trying to place my hair where it belongs... I'm afraid it will be a lifelong battle.
The trio. (Just an hour or so before Ben's Setting Apart as a Missionary)
"You say third wheel, we say tricycle."
If you guys don't understand the Zach/Ben/Me relationship, just know that the three of us have been best pals, at least most of the time, since 8th grade. During our junior and senior years of high school we became even better friends and then Zach and I became even better friends (wink wink) but the three of us continued to be a triumvirate (I love that word) of BFFs.
The time I gave him a Mohawk. It lasted about five minutes. (I'm totally opposed to Mohawks but he sorta pulled it off...)
I don't know why I'm so obsessed with this picture of us... probably cause we look like total dorks.
At Zach's farewell open house thing. This might have been the last (most recent--not last EVER) picture we took together. I love his dimples.
For those of you who appreciate "Waking Ned Devine," Ben, Zach, and I have decided we are retiring to Ireland to be just like these guys. Minus the alcoholic beverages. (Except we don't know who the young'n is yet. We are accepting applications.)
No explanation necessary for this bad boy. Cuteness.
So, there is a little bit of our history in pictures. But honestly, no pictures can really describe our relationship, or make anyone understand. You just have to know us, I guess. We are perfect for each other. Take my word for it.
My time with Zach over the past couple years has made me so tremendously, joyously happy. The movies, the food, the athletics, the texting, the walks, the Skype dates, those glorious one-week periods he would come visit from Duke, the sitting and talking about the deep things of life... Every single day, I think of a funny/cute memory we've had, usually of things he says. I've started writing them down because I don't want to forget them. "God gave us memories that we might have June roses in the December of our lives."
It was really hard (understatement) to say goodbye to him for 2 years--quite honestly it was the hardest thing I have ever had to do, and the most hopelessly depressed I have ever felt. But the beautiful thing is that the despair didn't last long. I am happy. I'm carrying on with life, staying very busy, and learning and growing in so many ways. And it's not like he's totally GONE... I write him every week. (And be proud that I have such restraint; I could write every day if I chose to.) He writes me every week (so far). I live for love his letters.
But of course I miss him. Every single day. I am and will be counting down the days until I see him again. (Which actually helps.) But I wouldn't want him to be doing anything else right now. Serving a mission is exactly what he should be doing at this time. I have felt so much strength and love from family and friends and especially my Savior Jesus Christ. I have grown closer to Him by leaning on His outstretched arm when I need comfort and strength. I couldn't do this without Him. I am so grateful for my testimony of the Gospel, which helps me understand and truly find joy in Zach's choice to serve a mission.
So, as for the two big questions everyone asks:
"Are you waiting?" Not passively. I'm not wasting my precious years of youth. But yes, as in I won't be getting married before he gets back. Which leads me to the next question...
"Are you going to marry him?" Honestly? Probably yes. I'm aware that unexpected things happen. I also know as long as I am faithful and righteous, God will lead me to what is best for me. He wants me to be happy. And I'm pretty sure about this one.
"Keep your eyes on your dreams, however distant and far away."
-Elder Holland
This got really personal. Maybe too personal for my blog, so I apologize for that. But I just wanted to get that out there. Thanks for putting up with my lapse into SUPERMISSIONARYGIRLFRIENDMODE.
50 days down, people.
I'm really scared to hit "publish." This is the inside scoop, the whole, raw truth about me.
Don't judge me.
Here we go...
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